A New Year

Well it is almost goodbye to 2011 and hello 2012. So many things already in the works to happen in 2012 so hoping it all goes good!
Koran has many new things already starting at work with lots of new stuff coming up. He does an awesome job and even when he is not at work....he is at work. Always thinking of and figuring out how to make it even better. I am very proud of him.
Excited to see all the new things Kathryn will learn this year as we get to watch her keep growing and becoming quite a unique little girl. She has a perspective on things I haven't seen in many children. So exciting to imagine what she will do with her life one day.
In 2012 Konnor will be a Senior in high school. Hard to believe in a year and a half he will be graduating. When I met Koran Konnor was 4 years old. My how times flies! So proud of all his accomplishments and where he seems to be decided to take his life after high school.
As for me...I just want to be happy in 2012 being a good wife and mother. I guess if I have a resolution it is to be even better at that. I have two of the most wonderful people that are my family so I want to be the best for them I can be. And of course more mother/daughter shopping trips! :)
Happy New Year!

Christmas

We have finished our Christmas Eve traditions and Kathryn is finally in bed. She knows tonight Santa will be coming with his flying reindeer. She said she was good and will get presents from him, and she was and will. I felt so blessed tonight watching her open her presents and was so proud of how unselfish she was. She even waited to open her gifts and help everyone else open theirs before she would open another one of her own. Such a sweet and special girl we have. And while we had fun I made sure to remind her that we celebrate because Jesus was born and that is the best gift we could ever get.
Tomorrow is church and a quiet afternoon of just playing with toys and hanging out. Monday we head to Huron to stay with Koran's mom and then up to North Dakota to see Konnor for Christmas with him. With all the running we sometimes stop to remember that Jesus is the reason for the season. And because of Him we are able to buy probably too many gifts for our loved ones. I am so thankful for all God does for us and continues to do for us. May He bless everyone this Christmas.

Always something

Some days I feel like it is always something! Last week had issue with some family stuff. Then Friday night Kat slipped and fell and seemed ok but started limping. Took her to the chiropractor on Mon and her pelvic was out. Well she is still limping and now lump in back of her leg by her knee. So to the dr we go tomorrow morning. Hoping it is all related and will heal on its own.
Lots of prayer being said for my little girl.

Nobody is perfect only God

There are days where I try to do everything perfectly. And those are the days everything seems to be very not perfect! I want to be the best wife, mom, daugher, sister and friend I can be. To me that means being there for them whenever they need me. In good and bad times. I have friends that no matter what has happened they are the ones I call first. I am lucky to be married to my best friend. To me that means we have no secrets, always talk and let each other know what is going on with our friends and family. It is the trust and communication that has made our almost 12 years of marriage so great.
I have made plenty of mistakes. When Kat was born I was so overwhelmed by having to be in the hospital 4 different times within a 5 week period it drove me almost insane. I felt I had no control over any situation or anything going on in my life. I just wanted to feel "normal". Lucky for me I had a good husband that knew once I was feeling better and got home for good, and yes the pregnancy hormones settled down, I would be back to normal. It took a while but I did.
Koran realized nobody is perfect. Things happen in our lives and we wish we could change that one moment or that one thing. We can't. We can say "I'm sorry" and move on. God says once you asked forgiveness your sin is forgotten. As far as the east is from the west. WOW! If only I could forget it like He does.
In my 35 years there have only been a couple times I wish things had gone different or I had done something different. Those are the times I beat myself up and then I remember. When it counted I made the right decisions. When it counted I asked forgiveness. When it counted I admitted I was wrong. God forgave me so isn't it time I forgive myself?
I think of all the things I want to teach our daughter to make her a great person. One of those things will be to remember no one is perfect, but God always forgives. Just be the best person you can be. Remember that words can destroy a spirit or build a spirit up so choose what you say to someone wisely. Never take for granted another day with someone you love. Always have a smile for everyone. And yes, even your mom is not perfect, never has been. That doesn't mean I am not the best wife and mom I can be. It just means I may make a few mistakes along the way. And it's ok....nobody is perfect...only God.

God is good

So many times in life things don't go exactly the way we thought they should. We find ourselves disappointed and upset wondering why things never work out. I am very guilty of this! I wonder how God could let this happen. How could he let people we love make decisions they do or end up sick or hurt?
Then I realize, on a good day, that it is all God's plan. He is bigger then any "major" issue here on earth. And even though we don't see a reason for it God does. As a human it isn't easy to understand. Probably why we spend nights crying for our kids, husbands and loved ones because of the "fear" of what could possibly happen to them. Faith is what we believe in but it doesn't always makes us stronger.
I love the Amy Grant song that talks about how God loves to hear our cries to him more then our worship. To him that is the true worship, our trust in him. My husband has amazing faith. He seems to never doubt God is in control and we should not worry. With that said he has shed tears for our son who is in the Marines and will be deployed in a few months because the thought that he could be killed is always there. But his faith carries him through. Many times I look at him and remember I must  keep my faith strong too. God is always in control. And God is good....all the time.

My girl

Kathryn is such an amazing little girl! I can't believe how fun and exciting everything is to her. She has the best imagination. I love just watching her with her animals and talking to her imaginary friends, or maybe it's her guardian angel. She is something! So blessed.

 Kat and her buddy Spotty

 Christmas Kat!

Santa Kat!

and so cute in her new PJ's!

birthday

So what really is a birthday? Another day really. And for some reason every year people have to remember you are getting older! Seriously I am very blessed and thankful for a loving family, great kids, the blessing of my daughter I thought I would never have and an above amazing husband that I am not sure how I got so lucky to marry. And while there are tough days over all you have to remember that it could always be tougher but in the end because of the great people God has put in your life you are so blessed. Thankful for the phone calls and many birthday wishes I have already gotten today. Another reminder that yes I am a year older, but I am loved. :)

Monday blues

I always dislike Monday! Koran goes back to work and it just seems like the week is so long. I thought when I didn't work anymore I wouldn't care as much about weekends...yeah I was very wrong! My favorite time is still with my husband and now Kat too. And boy Kat does love Daddy whenever she can get him.
So dispite the few snow flurries this morning (thankful they melted) we did have a good Monday morning. It was graduation day from the last Kindermusik of the fall sememster. So Koran came to and got to see some of what her classes are like and meet her teacher. She really enjoyed him being there.
And on a positive Monday note, even though it is way to cold outside, the snow stopped and the sun is shining. So happy Monday, hey it's almost over!

Weekend Concert

Had a really good time on Saturday night with my husband. He took me out to supper and a Christmas Concert by Tonic Sol Fa. It was great just having some alone time with him!
Feel very lucky that we got 2 nights out in a row out together. Funny when you don't have kids you take for granted that you can just pick up and go out. Totally different world.
Hoping once Kathryn is older she can stay overnight with her Aunt Shelly some and maybe even eventually mom and dad could take a weekend get away. Be away....but always dreaming!
With that said, I did miss being here for bath time and to kiss her goodnight. Those are things mommy and daddy's are best for. But Auntie did a great second best. :)

DPS Christmas party

Last night was Koran's work Christmas party. Koran is the President of Dakota Performance Solutions. Started out as a very small company and between Koran and Matt is has really grown the last few years.
Anyway so we get a night out, which is always nice, and a few of our good friends actually work for Koran so not having to just go and talk to a bunch of people you don't know.
I ended up spending the whole night with my friend Tara so ended up being a really fun night. We got home around 11 which is way to late for me anymore! But it was nice to go out as a couple and not worry about Kathryn. Although I was on edge until I knew she was in bed.
On a good note Koran won $100 so all in all fun night and we came out ahead!

This is my husband, Koran. My best friend and the one guy I don't know how I could ever live without. He is pretty amazing! We met at Citibank back in 1999 and got married on April 15, 2000. It has been a crazy and fun ride with him with many unexpected things along the way. But for sure God chose him for me because I couldn't have a better fit. He loves everything about me even my obessive cleaning, my constant worrying and my need to try and be perfect. He for sure keeps me grounded and reminds me to just be me!

Our Family

I thought it would be fun to start a blog where I can share more than you can on Facebook or Twitter. No one may read this much but a place where I can express myself more and share our family thoughts. We are blessed to have 2 sons and a daughter. Each in a different stage of their life. I am lucky enough to be a stay at home mom. I hope to try to write on hear at least a few times a week to update you on our family events and add pictures. See how it goes!
Thankful I have a family that I can share about. God is good....all the time!